Baby Blues: New Tune

For 5 years now I have been on the cheerleading squad for new mommies.  My youngest son will be 6 in two months,  and it was during that pregnancy I decided to throw in the reproductive towel.  At the time I was delighted at my decision, but as time goes on and people my age are still having babies I feel like, dang I do miss that “new baby joy”.

Now don’t start feeling sorry for me and sounding the awwws. All 3 of my children go to school full-time and my bank account thanks me for cutting out our daycare expense. But new babies do make me realize I took for granted my own babies.  I had the chance to owwww & awwww 3 times but I didn’t.  I spent the first years from conception through toddler days hoping, wishing, praying and counting down until they got older. I couldn’t wait!  

Now they are older. 12, 8 & 6 years older. I look at new babies and regret  the time I lost enjoying mine while they were young, because I was wishing they were big. Part of the reason for this anxious time lapse was being young myself. I am only 31 years old now. I spent most of their younger years trying to accomplish my dreams while I was in my younger years; most of the time I was exhausted, irritated, and needed a break.

I finally understand now that if I had children now, at this age; I could appreciate them so much more. I never neglected them, but I neglected the little things that made the experience of motherhood. Time brings patience, wisdom, and understanding. Qualities essential for raising children that I had not honed and perfected being a young mom. 

Now taking from my parenting valuable life lessons; I encourage others to appreciate what they have.  I hate I no longer have the opportunity to try again, the right way; but I can always love on the ones I have a little longer before they become big heartless grown ups & shew me away.

Also, it gives me solace knowing that while my friends are in their 40s doing little league and school dances; I will be cruising the world seeing the sights with my adult children, enjoying the good, carefree life!!! I like that tune even better! 🙂